another 2 days will be mummy chinese birthday... suppose to be whole family go... but cause happening nw... cause of u,,, i lost... i lost all....
did u really happy ma after beat me??? will u really happy ma if u beat me to death??? people say u change but how do u expect to believe in u... they dun know hw i been through for this 20 years... so great of u to make people think that u r the greatest... but y cant u make me think that u r the greatest... everytime i think of u, i sure cry... i cry for whole night... u really make me pain... maybe it was my wrong din ans ur phone... i try very hard to ans but i really cant... i dun even wan to listen to your voice... every night i saw u, do u know what is the feeling ma... scare and hate... i really hate u... u r the one who cause me in this situation now... i am in a mess life nw... always scare... scare dunno when will u up and cause up trouble... scare dunno when i get beaten by u again... scare hw u humiliate me again...
even mummy birthday u also wanna treaten me... is it really beat me till death then only will make u happy... do u really thought tat the words that out from u saying that u know u wrong i will believe ma??? ever since small... when mummy around, i heard from u but u keep on doing and repeating the same words and action and it getting worse each time... u chase me out from that hell place that night have u thought on my feeling ma??? i couldn't even call that place house for i hate that place so much....
everytime u beat me and mocked me have u ever think that i am your own flesh ma... have i really fight back everytime u beat me??? i just remain silence... u ask me to go out whenever u in moody and after beat me, have i really out ma? i din even step a foot outside that place... i really think of run away from that place but i never really do it... its u who chase me out, who pushed me out... do u know how pain my heart was ma???
if for me last time, i sure believe u but nw... i been watching and listening to your lie for 20 years... u the one who teach us how to lie... nw i live at outside... i never felt this happy before... i never had a feeling of family before when i stay with u... sometimes i thought mummy passed away was right... at least she does not to be torture by u... the only things she could not left is stephanie... i very very very hate u...
i dun even wanna c ur face nw... terence is not me.. i not really blame him... he can mad at me and scold me... but no matter what u say, i will not back and stay at that hell place d... i rather homeless than stay at hell place... pls dun make me do sth that i dun wan to do it... pls dun force me... i would rather die... my EQ is not that strong... if not because of stephanie, irene and piggy, i cant stand it....i really cant stand.... i would really choose a stupid way than being in this situation... maybe u will feel more happy... i will feel more happy and at ease...
i can bear till now is because of them and also because of my friend Renee who always beside me.... but i dunno i can stand till long...
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