am i doing the wrong thing???

can someone please let me know am i doing the wrong thing??? can someone pls tell me that i wrong all this while.... please let me know that i was crying for no reason all this while???..................... can someone please...........


i don't really know am i wrong all this while or i right... if can i don't want to hate you all this while... do you think hate someone is comfortable??? the feeling is aweful...... the feeling is hard especially hate someone or angry with someone who are close to us... i don't really know whose wrong actually... am i wrong if i wanna have my own way....

am i doing the wrong thing ma??? there are things happen and it cant be turn back and be treated as nothing happen... maybe i wrong for not tolerating with your feeling after mum death... but i really wanna know have you ever treat me as your daughter all this while... if you are treating me as your daughter why you never try to really listen to my words and my feeling all this while... i have a father but i never really felt that my father with me all this while... i had try to talk to you but it turns out..... i just want you to understand what i want from this family all this while... am i wrong... ever since small i never request anything from you.... computer, handphone i had never open my mouth and asked from you..... maybe you forget already last time when i was small whenever i request a thing from you... in the end i didn't get my things but i get scolding and beat from you... you always say you love me but why i never felt it before... why my memory all is you beat me... you kick me... why the happy memory just a few.... can you tell me ma???

i remember i promise mummy that no matter what happen i will forgive you but why must you treat me like this... you lost your wife but i lost my mummy... i try not to think back how you treat mummy when she ill but everytime youthe one who cause me think back.... i had try to be a daughter that you want... however i realize that you never truly appreciate and never truly care.... do you know hw hurt it was when you didn't appreciate what i done for you...

at the date of mummy demise... none of you all dare to clean mummy things.. i also feels very hard.. i clean and tidy everything....even got several times i nearly fainted while cleaning... do you know how pain my heart was... i give up my everything for her... my career and my dream... instead of getting your appreciation i get you mocking and humiliation.... i am your daughter... you always choose to believe other people words rather than believe my words... everytime things happen... u said wont mention it again... but u will sure make urself drunk and find a reason to beat me... i am your daughter and yet this what i get....

i saw piggy family... this is what i want... smile and laugh and quarrel... all together... but in our family got your say only... we cant say on anything.... then what's the point...

i had never wan to move out... but that day that slap did hurt in heart... u chase me out... u even use mummy to chase me out... you hurt??? i hurt 10x more.......... u always say u hurt then threw ur tempers on us... what do you treat we are???

nw i live outside alone... but u use irene to force me back... i had think of many times wanna die... have you ever notice about it.......... i feel hard to breathe... u r the one making me cant believe in guys... i am being unfair to piggy cause of you....

do you know that my life is bitter and harder than death???.................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why must u like tis... i prefer to live outside than live at thr.... my leg cant even step in that house nw............ i am happy at outside but y must u make like tis.... are u happy seeing me like tis..............

y is mummy got the cancer!!!!!!!!!!!!
y not me get cancer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i really cant take it anymore........................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!