my life 021210

i was unhappy yesterday... i don't want to let piggy know about it... but don't know why everytime piggy call i sure tell him... yesterday piggy got a function... his fren wanna call him to mois... but because of me he cancel it... i felt that i am so bad... what piggy done to me i could sense it but  have a feeling of scared and afraid... why am i having this feeling???

i told piggy everything... will a people be boring for listen to my problem again and again??? will piggy be boring??? he hug me sleep... felt so warm and comfortable... sleep in his shoulder felt so livingly live... his hug gave me a comfort and gave a feeling that i am not alone...

lately owez sleep with him and have his hug during bedtime... now when i sleep alone,,, i cant really sleep... is he feeling the same??? or is he feeling nice i am not at there... more free...


maybe i should not concern about him too much... for i know the more i concern,,, the more i care is the more i scare... scared of losing, scared of hurting... i got told his mama how my ex treat me... his mama told me everything related to him... he quite nice guy... why am i nowadays feels scared??? why am i scared of losing him???

it is the time for me to bring to see my beloved??? when will it be the time??? i wont be thinking of those things anymore... i promise and swear to myself that yesterday would be my last cry... i wont shed a tears because of those things anymore.... i will treasure myself more and i will treasure him well...

piggy i love you ooo.... i just hope that i could hear again the words that you say to me that night... it was the sweetest words from you ever.... OYS 5201314