WH - inside me.........

recently there's been argument between us. last time i would blame it all on u. now i dun even know who's wrong. last nite, again we had an argument. i was asking maybe something i shouldn't ask it from u. seeing other's boyfriend willing to do everything and even sacrifice everything for the one they love make me jealous for u never really do anything for me except for our 2nd anniversary and also on my birthday this year. frankly speaking i am very surprise and happy on what u had done to me tat time and tat moment. how ur bro-in-law treat ur sis make me jealous and how i c ur sis no burden make me jealous. i am full of burden and also full of stress. but u never realise that. although i have 2nd job now but it still can't cover my expenses. i am not a really hard and strong woman. i am also a weak woman who need shoulder and also breathe for me to breath in. recently ur family really gave me a lot of pressure and stress. making me thinking on my mum lifestyle while she still alive. whom can i seek to speak out all my feeling. our car had a lot of problem i knew it. y i wanna pay more than u it's because i wan to have ur man back. i dun wan u to suffer on the car installment. however u never knew it. i know it's a burden for u to buy a car and i also knew it was me who force u. but i also got ask u whether u wan or not. i just needed a simple ans and u ans yes. i had nothing to say d. i am working hard find more extra job in order for the car maintenance and also for our future for what purpose? i had been searching for another class to teach for what purpose? all also because of you. i am giving ur family money and because of that i didn't even gave a single cent to my family. i didn't give a single cent to the one's who raise me hard with his tear and sweat. although he is able to earn money but no matter how he is still my dad. the person who raise me up with his money. i am now breaking my promise towards my mum. i didn't even taking care of my dad. hav u ever understand that. i ahd been so much wanted to move from ur hse. unfortunately u didn't even notice tat. maybe it's a good thing. for we wont to have to argue on this thing. last nite i am asking for something which i thought is not over but ur reaction told me that i am over. u say to me that u r tired. u r tired with all my request and also my complaints. have u ever think of that, if u r tired then how about me who been telling u and complaint to u on all the problem that exist between us. maybe i disappoint u but ur reaction last nite make feel like i am a rubbish which can be throw and throw there and after throw if u wan me back u can recycle me to use again and then throw again. maybe i am hoping too much from and maybe u had been rely on me too much. honestly, i am tired with all this thing and also all of this argument. this is the 2nd time u did ur reaction of satisfaction towards me. i am just a weak girl and i dun wan to be strong. by right today i suppose to be happy for we r moving to our new place but it seems like u r not happy at all. maybe we both really nid time to calm down and also think back on our relationship. i am going to off my phone and maybe i won't even back today. we should give ourself time to think deeply whether r we suitable o not.... i am tired of crying.