u had made a decision to be with me but i dunno is it really what u want or it is just because i force u??? i tried so hard not to think so much but i cant. my mind keeps on thinking on the decision u made. i had been asking myself is this really what i wan or it is just because of my dad....
actually do u know what am i thinking and y i can never feel ur care and love towards me d nowadays. i had asked so many times do u understand my feeling but everytime what i get is disappointment. i dun think i expecting too much from u and i had been lower down my expectation... maybe because of tat made me cried for these few months and made me mao tun...
just now i told u but it seems like u dun feel the way i was. i was hoping not to think too much but i cant. although we had our own room now but ur care and love towards me become lesser and lesser. i felt it and the worst thing for me right now is u dun feel and understand on our situation...
i can never win ur words. whenever i say out a thing the one who win is u and it will always not be me. i had asked and told u many times whenever u wan say a thing pls care abt my feeling and put me in first but u never do...
just nw u asked us what we wanna eat i said bak kut teh... u know i wanna eat so much but u can drive us to eat yong tao foo... i really angry and dunnp what reaction should i gave u... the way u looked at me just now seems like i am not suppose to give tat reaction. am i wrong to have a nice meal for once in a blue moon. it is u who promise to let me have a nice meal and also bak kut teh every month. do u still remember what u promise me.
maybe recently i had been thinking too much but who made me think of it... who cause me to think???
i had said it many times... say until i tired... say until i frustrated and also until i give up now... i wanna give u....
thinking back on i sacrifice for u and i been in patience because of u... i was very very stupid...
u need a place to stay but i need a family and a guy who could keep me warm when i am cold...
u need someone to always prepare and even serve u but i need a guy who could care and love me than i do.... dun u even understand tat...
can i just give up my hope and let it be........
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