pretending

mami,

one's still in my heart... i keep on thinking about him day and night... i might be crazy... mami is it wrong for me to try... did i really cant get what i want and only can stick to wat i had choosen which led me to sorrow,ssad and grief moment... cant i choose my happiness and what makes me happy... y cant i be with someone who can make me happy... one's makes me happy but is seems like impossible for us as he is avoiding me and i cant get near him... i stop texting one's but i cant stop my mind from thinking of him and missing him... as for him, totally no space to fit him d... i know we are in the end but i dunno how to end it...
i wan to text one's but i scare he avoid me again... should i text him or not... i was wondering tat night when he grabs my hand did he really just wan to keep me warm but y he put my hand inside his body... did he really no interest in me and just fooling me.... did he just treat me as a normal client and fren without any feeling at all... the feeling when he holds my hands still fresh in my minds....
mami, if u read this, can u just help me by letting me know.... can let us b together and let me choose again... ur daughter me really tired in thinking and seeking for love... i need ur love more... even he play with i am willing to play with him...

mami........................