i am still me @ xxxx

29/10/2014 Moody and Dilemma

I always stick to my principle that I hate to have a playboy as lover... I really hope this thing wont happen in me now... I am a registered girl and can be said that I am belongs to a guy d... but somehow recently i noticed that i am changing to another person... i'm not sure whether i am still me or I am being a different me...

nobody would understand me better than myself... I know that i had been changing drastically lately... Not only i love to see guy and hang out... I even think on having another relationship with another guy as well... I dun mind if another relationship won't last long cause I am happy with am I doing nw... I love to meet up with guys...

I am not sure what cause me to change but at least I am really happy now... I can avoid myself from being hurt and whatever hurt he cause make me feels nothing d now... eventhough last 2 nights, I knew he is going clubbing with his fren, but i pretend i dunno and dun have any feeling of angry or hatred... i dunno y i change to be someone i dun even understand who am i now...

i started to have feeling with another guy now but i still control my action as i know tat guy wont fall for me due to his half is much much better than me... i am not the type he likes... but whenever tat guy msg me i felt tremendously happy and i can't control myself from smiling... i even always go to the place where he works in order to c and purposely through my special day at thr... although nothing happen between us, but i am still feeling very happy and satisfied... i not dare to ask more... as there's a word saying "things that can't belongs to us will always be the best"... I just hope our relationship will remain like this and end like this... probably wont last long as i am just a pass by person to him.... i will treasure the memory with him... i wish one day he would take me on his xxxxxbxxe.... dunno this wish can come true or not.... silly of me to think tat.... tis guy managed to give the feeling i lost near 7 years ago with someone whom i let go and regret for my life till now.... and i also knew that this feeling tat he gave is going to fade away soon.... i will get rid of him and move with my life.....


jia you ba silly girl.... :)